Unhinged Omega: A Dark Reverse Harem Omegaverse Romance (Ghost Alpha Unit Book 4)

water

do not like water

avoid unless bloody

which is often

water is cold

it is wet

it is wrong

spray in the lab was better

did not sprinkle

did not smell like flowers

alphas should not smell like flowers

maybe the loud alpha with yellow hair

but not me

but moonlight goddess wants it

so i endure

she laughs when i shake off like a beast

droplets scatter across stone floor

but laugh is not cruel

is gentle

like her hands

when she strokes my soaked hair

when she washes blood from my skin

from my metal claws

moonlight approaches now

holds soft cloth

reaches up to dry my hair

i must bend down so she can reach

always so small

so fragile

want to wrap around her

shield her from everything that can harm her

but how, when i could harm her too?

‘hold still,’ she commands

voice like silk

like starlight

obey without thought

would obey anything she asks

even this

her fingers work through tangles in my hair

touch gentle

always gentle

no one has ever touched with gentleness

only pain

only purpose

only orders

but she touches like i am worth something

like i am more than weapon

more than beast

more than monster

purr builds in chest without permission

cannot help response to her touch

to her scent

even through stinging flower soap smell

can still catch sweetness beneath

like moonflowers

like night air

like home

she smiles up at me

violet eyes bright

‘There,’ she says. ‘Much better.’

i want to speak

to tell her…

what?

that she is everything?

that she is only thing that matters?

that i would die to keep her safe?

that i would bring the whole world to its knees?

but words will not come

never come

only growls

only sounds of beast i am

i try to speak

i should be able to

being with her has cleared my mind

has made it easier to think

to form whole thoughts

but no words come out

just more growls

she does not seem to mind

understands anyway

somehow

always understands

runs fingers through damp hair again

checking work

touch lingers on temple

brush against a big scar there

‘Does it hurt?’ she asks softly

shake head

lies are bitter

but truth would make her sad

do not want her sad

rather bear pain in silence

she sees through lie anyway

clever moonlight

always sees

fingers trace edge of mask

where metal meets mutilated flesh

i flinch back

a low growl tells her no

not a threat

but a plea

she pauses

lowers her hands

‘I won’t take it off,’ she promises.

i pause

i wait

she reaches up again

touch so light

barely there

but burns

everything burns

except her

she is cool

is soothing

is peace

have never known peace before her

stone walls press in

too close

too dark

cannot see sky here

cannot see real moon

but have my moonlight

here

with me

it is enough

‘What are you thinking about?’

such a sweet sound, her voice

lean into her touch without thought

like beast seeking affection

pathetic

weak

but cannot help

need her touch like air

like blood

like life itself

like i needed her out there

needed to be inside her

with her

and only her

‘You don’t like it down here, do you?’

shake my head

no

do not like stone walls

do not like being trapped

like pit

like cage

like laboratory

the worst part is other alphas

hate them all

they want my moon

she is mine

and only mine

but for now, she is here

she is with me only

so will endure

will protect

will keep safe

growl builds in chest at thought

‘Hey,’ she murmurs. ‘It’s okay. We won’t stay long.’

lean into touch again

want to tell her

want to explain

want to make her understand

danger

threat

but words stay trapped

she pets my hair again

gesture meant to soothe

and it does

tension bleeds from shoulders

from spine

from soul

‘Just two days,’ she promises. ‘Then we’ll leave. Find somewhere with a view of the sky. I know you don’t like being trapped inside.’

does she think i want the false god in the sky?

i know better now

my moon is here on earth

not up there

but i nod

she smiles

likes when i nod

don’t know why

‘You need better clothes. The cloak is okay, but I’m sure Raven can find something somewhere that would fit you. Lots of guards here. Someone has to be almost as big as you.’

pauses, looks at me

isn’t sure

growl builds at other alpha’s name

of golden one who looks at her with hunger

he is a sun

sun and moon are enemies in the sky

he wants her

wants to claim her

i will kill him first

but she places hand on arm

touch gentle

always gentle

‘None of that,’ she scolds. ‘He’s useful. For now.’noveldrama

useful

yes

can help find her mate

Azarel

must be, if he is searching

a proper mate

not broken like me

chest aches at thought

but push feeling away

does not matter what i want

only her

only moonlight

only everything

she yawns

exhaustion clear in delicate features

in violet eyes

in way she sways slightly

‘We should get some sleep.’

she moves to massive bed

sinks into soft blankets

blankets like clouds accepting moon

‘You’ll stay?’ she asks

voice small

uncertain

as if i could ever leave

as if anything could tear me from her side

so i nod

move to corner

where can see door

where can stay in shadows

see threats from here

she frowns

‘No,’ she says. ‘Here.’

pats space beside her

cannot

must not

am not worthy

‘Please?’

one word

one word breaks all resistance

move carefully to bed

pause at the edge

rest metal claws on edge

they tear the blanket

fluffy feathers puff up

i jerk away

my moonlight just giggles

a musical sound

a perfect sound

‘Come here,’ she insists, taking my hand

my human hand

i loom over the bed

press my knee against it

it creaks

i pause

she pulls me gently

pulls me forward

she has no strength to move me

but i still let her do it

try not to take up too much space

impossible task

when am twice her size

three times, four times, maybe

but she does not seem to mind

curls against my side like belongs there

like i am not a monster

purr builds again

cannot stop purring

do not want to stop purring

wrap human arm around her

must be careful

she is precious

‘Good night,’ she murmurs

already half asleep

safe

protected

trusting

press face into her hair

breathe in scent of moonlight

of home

of peace

she sighs

content

happy

because of me?

it cannot be

she has already given me so much

would give anything in return

everything

but have nothing to give

except protection

except devotion

except self

broken as it is

she seems to want anyway

cannot understand why

but will not question

will simply accept

like everything else with her

it is a gift