Unspoken Pleasure

Saturday seemed to just evaporate. One minute Violet was spending the morning intermittently napping between lazy bouts of masturbation to the worst parts of the nightmare that had become her life. The next minute she was stepping out of a long scalding shower where she tried and failed to feel clean again, and it was suddenly three in the afternoon. That left her scrambling to get ready if she didn't want to make James wait. Something told her that the last thing she wanted to do was give that man an excuse to punish her again. So Violet wolfed down a quick lunch and then decided what to wear. She considered just putting on sweatpants and a tee-shirt, but he might see that as her being unwilling, and make her come back home naked or worse.

So instead Violet decided to go all out, wearing a black lace panty and bra set underneath a 20s inspired purple flapper dress with a string of faux pearls looped several times around her neck. She finished it off with some wide fishnet tights and a pair of low heels suitable for dancing, or maybe even running if worst came to worst since she had no idea what to expect. She liked this dress because it made her look like a flapper, and gave her an excellent excuse to hide her lack of cleavage. But when she had finished doing some subtle lipstick, some not so subtle eyeliner, and a stepped back to look at the whole picture in the mirror instead of each of the individual details she remembered why she didn't like this outfit: it was one of the few things she owned that could make her look actually kind of pretty. When she wore it, guys checked her out everywhere she went, making her extremely self conscious.

Being a wallflower was normally her thing. It was safe, comfortable, and easy. For some reason when she looked at herself in the mirror tonight though, she didn't feel the overwhelming need to change to something less conspicuous. She was sure her psychology book or the rape survivors website she'd been reading earlier would have talked about coping mechanisms or the need to take back control, but Violet thought it was probably just a desire to appease her abuser so he would go easy on her. She doubted it would work, but she couldn't think of anything else that would.

To take her mind off that lingering feeling of vulnerability, she rushed around, taking care of a few last minute things, when she heard a knock at her door. A quick glance at the clock showed she'd lost track of time, and that James was here. She hurried over to the door, opened it, and there he was. He was undeniably handsome for a monster, with short dark hair, a crooked smile, and two days of scruff that somehow suited him. It was offset by a nice collared shirt and slacks he was wearing. A casual observer wouldn't be able to tell he was anything but a normal guy - not unless they really studied those cold, dark eyes. He stood there a moment and then he did something unexpected. With a small flourish, produced a single long stem red rose behind his back.

He smelled it, and then offered it to her. "Here you go pet, a flower for a flower." Violet blushed, realizing that in that moment she couldn't even tell he was a monster. He was dangerously good at camouflage.

She reached for it cautiously, and then took it, carrying it over to the kitchenette to find a tall glass she could use as a vase. "Thank you," she said, over her shoulder. "You really shouldn't have." While she ran the water, she wondered whether this was an attempt to make amends, or to let down her guard. She didn't have to wonder long; as soon as she set the makeshift vase down on the counter and put the flower in it, he stepped behind her, pinning her to the counter. "What the fuck?" she protested, trying to turn around, but she couldn't. His body was pressed entirely against her with his left hand on her hip and his right hand on her throat. It wasn't painful, but it was threatening and dangerously sensual. Wasn't he going to even wait until he'd bought her dinner before he molested her again?

"You look really lovely tonight," James said, caressing her collarbone before kissing the nape of her neck. "And you smell even better. I mean it. I could Eat. You. Up."

The words sent a shiver down her neck as she steeled herself for something worse, but after only a moment, he released her and then straightening his shirt said, "We should be going, or we'll be late for our reservation."

He took her by the arm, led her to the door, and they were on their way. They strolled arm and arm down the street in the light of the setting sun, looking for all the world like just another young couple. But they weren't, she reminded herself as she caught their reflection in a shop's window. No matter how cute he might look dressed up like this, this was all just a set up for some new terrible game. She swore to herself that this time she would be ready for it.

It was an easy thing to tell herself, but it was a harder thing to do. Especially when he insisted on being so charming. He took here to Le Reve, a lovely French restaurant, and then after he pulled out her chair he ordered the crêpes salées for her, and steak frites for himself along with a bottle of merlot. He must have known the waiter, because Violet waited for him to card her, but instead he just smiled and took down the order. After that they just made small talk until their food arrived. It was delicious. The crepes as well as the chicken melted in her mouth but neither was as good as the sauce. On a deep and permanent level, part of her hated the man sitting across from her, but the rest of her... well after a glass and a half of red she found herself taking to him. If he treated her like this from now on she might even be able to forgive him on some level. But the lull couldn't last.

Towards the end of the meal, after what had been a long stretch of utterly innocuous conversation, he turned to her and casually asked, "So what was your favorite part?"

"Of the meal? Well the crepe was..." she started.

"Not the meal, slut, the video. Which part do you watch the most?" It was an awful question to ask at all, let alone in public, but he asked it as if he was discussing how his classes went this week as he turned his attention back to his steak and began to cut another piece.noveldrama

"You ask me that here? Now?" Violet said, her voice barely above a whisper as she flushed bright red at the topic.

"Why not? It's a simple question. There are other people here, sure, but none of them are paying us the least bit of attention. They're all wrapped up in their own private dramas. No one else knows what a broken little cunt you are, so just tell me, and I won't have to punish you for your disobedience." James said, gesturing around to the other tables with a bit of steak skewered on his fork and smiling before he popped it into his mouth and chewed slowly waiting for her answer. Violet sighed heavily, showing her obvious distaste at this, but inside she was shaking like a leaf. What kind of person had a favorite moment from the night they were raped while they were blackout drunk. The same kind of person that would watch a tape of that night, she chided herself. Of course she had a favorite moment to cum to, but did she really have to tell him that? "Here we were having a perfectly lovely evening, and then you have to go and ruin it. I was actually having a good time James."